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i woke up today, and watched oprah while having my tea and bread,
and heard this phrase, said by one of her guests.
“the world is conspiring in my favour”
it brought a certain calm and peace to me.
and lightened my heart a lot.
that episode seemed to have struck a cord with me.
i don’t know why, but i feel less burdened.
i still hate work and the rest,
but, i just feel like i’ve just taken a happy pill.
: )
the parentals and friends have advised against executing ‘the plan’.
both actually has the same point.
parentals say stay on for a few more months,
and secure another job first, before i make that move.
friends say stay cos the econ. hasn’t been rocking sky high.
which means the same from both sides to me.
now feeling mixed feelings.
i know i shld stay, well, at least for awhile more, till the econ. stabilises.
even though, i’m treated like a dog every day.
i guess, its part of the learning process, as ah lai said.
and yes, i’ve learnt a lot fr this place.
be it ’skill’ or pple relations and all, and i am still learning.
plus points abt this place is, the customers and the colleagues who work with(under) me.
i’ve made friends with customers… and colleagues who are 98% co-operative.
i cant say that i am the best supervisor, but i think i am not bad, thru trial and error.
mum said tt i cannot expect another increment, considering the fact that i just got mine few mths back,
and that companies have their way to increment, yearly, or quarterly…
well, i guess she’s right on that one.
i think now, to lessen my burden at work, is to give the SUP on the other side what i have been doin for her.
which is ordering, liasing with suppliers and many more. i havent been able to let go of these stuff, cos she cocks it up every time. she pisses the suppliers off, and in the end, it becomes my job again, so i guess thats why i just do everything for her. i think i shld stop mothering them, and let them take ownership of their own dai ji from now on.
boss wannabe isn’t expecting me to leave the job for the next few years.
but, she has sat me down yesterday, and told me how lucrative nail places are .
and wants to set up shop with me. (ha) thanks, but no thanks.
in her few short months as SM mgr, she has applied for 3 credit cards,
and has bought quite expensive stuff over the few short months with the cards,
and has things still to pay off.
her spending has nothing to do with me, but i dont want to set up shop with a person who is in debt, and someone who treats me like a dog.
well, i think, i shall wait till everything stabilises then….
backtowork!!
i am executing the plan soon.
but, my heart beats quickly , then skips a few beats and gives me a very ’sng’ feeling in my chest when i think of that plan.
i know i have to, execute it, i mean.
even if i canot find another job in time, i will still leave.
one of the tchers (MYSG) tendered.
i asked her if she was ok. she told me “i feel free”.
i am looking forward to that feeling.
i think i will feel a whole lot better once it is done.
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i cant wait for teo heng tomorrow.
belt out some tunes with ah lai.
recently been into this song.
this whole album in fact.
the album’s name is Samsara.
people who dont like slow, lyric-less music wont like this..
Sound system at opics have been kinda loud lately, and somehow, this song(s) makes me feel so emo.
introduced to this by ‘C’.
HAI. back to work!
wo qi dai – zhang yu sheng and matilda tao.
unfortunately, i just cant find this song anywhere else!!!
yes. you read it correctly.
yours truly picked up a call at office yesterday. saying they were ‘debt collectors’ and will come knocking on my door tomorrow (today).
the boss asked me to ask them to fuck off or we’ll call the cops.
the boss wannabe said to me
“just call the cops! you scared what? thats wad the C.s are for! afterall they also too free. i’ll deal with it, afterall i caused all this trouble (huo shi wo chuang chu lai de). can’t you handle all this yourself?”
yes, she said all this in a sentence.
another colleague said “hahahahahahaha… thank god i dont have to handle this”
other two had a blank look.
i have to deal with this shit because i am working in the morning.
boss has this sick idea that she is queen of the world.
in fact, all management have.
they think that screaming will get them what they want.
ALL the suppliers tell me “wah. thank god now u handle ah… i canot stand that k leh….”
and the laundry company refuses to ans any phone call from anyone in the office except mine. (yes, it is tried and tested)
we dont have 13 month bonuses, because ‘you guys are paid OT what. counted as ur 13month bonus already’.
we got a complaint letter today and boss wants the explaination now.
i recall the person who called, and the fault does not lie in me,
but the thing will be shoved in my face somehow.
maybe cos i am too nice.
a tcher said “mat is never in a bad mood. she never is.”
mum told me not to hang the word resign at the corner of my mouth.
i cldnt give a damm if anyone has fever, stomach upset, gastric, injured their leg, short of staff.
i am absolutely exhausted with all thats going on around me at work.
i have an urge inside me to resign now, and leave this job before CNY.
right now,
i wish that they can vanish, fuck off, and fuck off to some far far far away land, far far far away from here.
mum and i are planning a holiday to genting. kwa kwa kwa.
after being so used to the one week/10 days holidays…
i told mum,
we spend a few days basking in the sun at terrenganu,
then we go to cameron highlands…
then we go to genting and freeze our asses off,
then come back to sunny singers.
hehe.
she said i am crazy.
we are aiming for february.
well, sweating in a drier country is better then sweating in humid sg. at least i won’t stink so much.
tsk.
dragon lady is back. sadly.
back to work!!
ps: i am suddenly into britney’s new songs… and marie digby’s songs.
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